WorldSave

Perhaps it is a purely personal thing, but I like to think I’m not the only one who likes to escape myself from time to time. And I do not mean to do so in a way most people choose — drugs, drinking, dangerous behavior and what-have-you. I mean a change of pace, of scenery, perhaps even of personality. To try on different shoes for once and discover you missed the old pair.

Lately I’ve been trying to break out of some terrible old habits. Its been a work in progress, but it has indeed been progress, which is more than I can say of previous attempts to do just this. But what creates this desire to break into something new? I can only think that it is a final attempt to change a current situation when anything short of a total makeover will just not suffice. That’s where my life has gone as of late - almost a complete 180. I’ve chosen to shed even some of the things I loved in order to gain new perspective. Losing these along with the things that truly needed to be forgotten has made me discover just what needs to be kept around. WorldSave is obviously one of the things that I will never forget.

So this mod needed a break, and I took one. Getting back into things may be slow, but they are coming. Life has been hectic with all these changes, but they are not unwanted. I just need to re-attach to some of my strengthening roots and remember who I am, even though these changes are trying to sweep me along with them.

I hope that anyone who has felt a similar experience can learn from these words: don’t forget who you are. This time around I’ve managed not to forget, but there have been times I’ve totally forsaken myself for the stupidest of reasons. This isn’t to say you cannot find new sides to yourself. By all means, grow and learn. But don’t forget who you are, what caused you to become that way, both good and bad. You can only move forward through understanding yourself.

I also hope that these glimpses into my personal life will cease before long. This site is both for personal and global development, but my original intention was to have it be very impersonal. Clearly that is not the route it has taken. Anonymity aside, you more or less know my story. If even one person can relate and learn from it then I’ve done my job. If not, then at least I’ve helped myself through a small vent.

I hope that these updates saying “WorldSave continues!” will cease and WorldSave will, in fact, continue. Its depressing to me to see it so stagnant. I love this site and what it stands for is what I’ve chosen to center my life around. I’ve forgotten it for a small amount of time so I could remember what its like to be young and have fun and not worry about anything (something I never really did in life), but it came back before long… for better or worse. I like to think for better but this whole “worrying” thing might get to me.

The goal to save the world remains. I’ll never forget it completely. That’s who I am, its a part of me now. There’s other parts too, but something tells me this goes a little deeper.

Lia Cross

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