WorldSave

Perhaps it is a purely personal thing, but I like to think I’m not the only one who likes to escape myself from time to time. And I do not mean to do so in a way most people choose — drugs, drinking, dangerous behavior and what-have-you. I mean a change of pace, of scenery, perhaps even of personality. To try on different shoes for once and discover you missed the old pair.

Lately I’ve been trying to break out of some terrible old habits. Its been a work in progress, but it has indeed been progress, which is more than I can say of previous attempts to do just this. But what creates this desire to break into something new? I can only think that it is a final attempt to change a current situation when anything short of a total makeover will just not suffice. That’s where my life has gone as of late - almost a complete 180. I’ve chosen to shed even some of the things I loved in order to gain new perspective. Losing these along with the things that truly needed to be forgotten has made me discover just what needs to be kept around. WorldSave is obviously one of the things that I will never forget.

So this mod needed a break, and I took one. Getting back into things may be slow, but they are coming. Life has been hectic with all these changes, but they are not unwanted. I just need to re-attach to some of my strengthening roots and remember who I am, even though these changes are trying to sweep me along with them.

I hope that anyone who has felt a similar experience can learn from these words: don’t forget who you are. This time around I’ve managed not to forget, but there have been times I’ve totally forsaken myself for the stupidest of reasons. This isn’t to say you cannot find new sides to yourself. By all means, grow and learn. But don’t forget who you are, what caused you to become that way, both good and bad. You can only move forward through understanding yourself.

I also hope that these glimpses into my personal life will cease before long. This site is both for personal and global development, but my original intention was to have it be very impersonal. Clearly that is not the route it has taken. Anonymity aside, you more or less know my story. If even one person can relate and learn from it then I’ve done my job. If not, then at least I’ve helped myself through a small vent.

I hope that these updates saying “WorldSave continues!” will cease and WorldSave will, in fact, continue. Its depressing to me to see it so stagnant. I love this site and what it stands for is what I’ve chosen to center my life around. I’ve forgotten it for a small amount of time so I could remember what its like to be young and have fun and not worry about anything (something I never really did in life), but it came back before long… for better or worse. I like to think for better but this whole “worrying” thing might get to me.

The goal to save the world remains. I’ll never forget it completely. That’s who I am, its a part of me now. There’s other parts too, but something tells me this goes a little deeper.

Lia Cross

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Since I’ve become increasingly more busy I’ve been wondering about boredom.  It is a truly desctructive thing to me, most notably my mind.  Not being busy drives me literally a little bit nuts, and I’m fairly certain I’m not the only one.  Why is this?  What causes boredom besides just not having anything to do?  Is it a lack of ingenuity?  How can we solve this?

I believe the cause of boredom is that our lives have become routine, and we have become dependent on external factors to entertain us.  We spend most of our lives working, which is the routine.  That takes of time and keeps us busy.  Off of work we will have hobbies, friends, family–all good outlets to avoid boredom and inactivity.  But what happens when a day comes along and there is just really nothing to do?  We sit in front of the TV all day, or do some similar mind numbing activity just to pass the time.  Because of this, we have lost the ability to create our own fun, our own culture, our own reality.  We have become dependent on other things to tell us how we should be, and if we are not doing one of those things boredom sets in.  What if there’s nothing on TV?  What if our external sources break or go missing?  Then what?

We could turn to books or the like.  Teaching ourselves something new is always a good way to keep the mind active.  Actually participating in something as a means of learning is a way to keep our body active as well.  Exercise.  Create something.  Make your own culture and reality, don’t depend on anything external to feed it to you.

This post may seem wildly unrelated and random, but its purpose is to somehow inspire you to create your own fun, and to make your time spent doing worthwhile things.  Perhaps, I also needed to remind myself of this as well.

Lia Cross

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