WorldSave

Perhaps it is a purely personal thing, but I like to think I’m not the only one who likes to escape myself from time to time. And I do not mean to do so in a way most people choose — drugs, drinking, dangerous behavior and what-have-you. I mean a change of pace, of scenery, perhaps even of personality. To try on different shoes for once and discover you missed the old pair.

Lately I’ve been trying to break out of some terrible old habits. Its been a work in progress, but it has indeed been progress, which is more than I can say of previous attempts to do just this. But what creates this desire to break into something new? I can only think that it is a final attempt to change a current situation when anything short of a total makeover will just not suffice. That’s where my life has gone as of late - almost a complete 180. I’ve chosen to shed even some of the things I loved in order to gain new perspective. Losing these along with the things that truly needed to be forgotten has made me discover just what needs to be kept around. WorldSave is obviously one of the things that I will never forget.

So this mod needed a break, and I took one. Getting back into things may be slow, but they are coming. Life has been hectic with all these changes, but they are not unwanted. I just need to re-attach to some of my strengthening roots and remember who I am, even though these changes are trying to sweep me along with them.

I hope that anyone who has felt a similar experience can learn from these words: don’t forget who you are. This time around I’ve managed not to forget, but there have been times I’ve totally forsaken myself for the stupidest of reasons. This isn’t to say you cannot find new sides to yourself. By all means, grow and learn. But don’t forget who you are, what caused you to become that way, both good and bad. You can only move forward through understanding yourself.

I also hope that these glimpses into my personal life will cease before long. This site is both for personal and global development, but my original intention was to have it be very impersonal. Clearly that is not the route it has taken. Anonymity aside, you more or less know my story. If even one person can relate and learn from it then I’ve done my job. If not, then at least I’ve helped myself through a small vent.

I hope that these updates saying “WorldSave continues!” will cease and WorldSave will, in fact, continue. Its depressing to me to see it so stagnant. I love this site and what it stands for is what I’ve chosen to center my life around. I’ve forgotten it for a small amount of time so I could remember what its like to be young and have fun and not worry about anything (something I never really did in life), but it came back before long… for better or worse. I like to think for better but this whole “worrying” thing might get to me.

The goal to save the world remains. I’ll never forget it completely. That’s who I am, its a part of me now. There’s other parts too, but something tells me this goes a little deeper.

Lia Cross

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Since I’ve become increasingly more busy I’ve been wondering about boredom.  It is a truly desctructive thing to me, most notably my mind.  Not being busy drives me literally a little bit nuts, and I’m fairly certain I’m not the only one.  Why is this?  What causes boredom besides just not having anything to do?  Is it a lack of ingenuity?  How can we solve this?

I believe the cause of boredom is that our lives have become routine, and we have become dependent on external factors to entertain us.  We spend most of our lives working, which is the routine.  That takes of time and keeps us busy.  Off of work we will have hobbies, friends, family–all good outlets to avoid boredom and inactivity.  But what happens when a day comes along and there is just really nothing to do?  We sit in front of the TV all day, or do some similar mind numbing activity just to pass the time.  Because of this, we have lost the ability to create our own fun, our own culture, our own reality.  We have become dependent on other things to tell us how we should be, and if we are not doing one of those things boredom sets in.  What if there’s nothing on TV?  What if our external sources break or go missing?  Then what?

We could turn to books or the like.  Teaching ourselves something new is always a good way to keep the mind active.  Actually participating in something as a means of learning is a way to keep our body active as well.  Exercise.  Create something.  Make your own culture and reality, don’t depend on anything external to feed it to you.

This post may seem wildly unrelated and random, but its purpose is to somehow inspire you to create your own fun, and to make your time spent doing worthwhile things.  Perhaps, I also needed to remind myself of this as well.

Lia Cross

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It became increasingly apparent to me today that America is a consumer nation.  Today is Memorial Day, and I was astounded by how swamped the grocery store was.  I was there to do a light shopping, just some food for the house and to return a rented DVD (which was interestingly enough a movie about presidency and a parody on our government).  Okay, I thought.  They’re just preparing for some celebrating.  Maybe some BBQ things they needed last minute?  The mere fact that people burn fleshy creatures as a means of celebrating astounds me, but that is a whole other topic for another day.

I was told by a friend today that the store he works in, a cell phone store, is also packed.  He apparently keeps receiving calls from people asking about deals, sales, and specials.  Now tell me.  Is that how a person celebrates their freedom?  Is that how you honor our fore-fathers for ensuring that we won’t be drinking tea at 4′o clock every day?  Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but you get my idea, yes?  Today is a day to celebrate the opposition of an oppressing government.  Now, some of you may be celebrating other war heroes, but I’ll leave those unmentioned, mostly because many wars I disagree with.  Nonetheless, young men and women — brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, sons, daughters — fought and died for us.  Human beings, loved ones.  They deserve to be honored for that decision:  the decision to sacrifice their life, or at least risk doing so, for what they believed to be the benefit of others.  It is a noble act either way you look at it.

So how will you celebrate it?  Please don’t tell me you’re running to your local cell phone store to see if you can get that sweet mobile for 15% off.  Please, please DO tell me that you’re celebrating it by being better than yourself today.  By doing something that sacrifices a part of you for the benefit of someone else.  I think that would be a far suitable way to celebrate Memorial Day.

Lia Cross

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I have encountered the term “over-think” a lot lately. I understood what it meant even though I had never bothered to define it. Realizing this, I have decided to define it, discover what about it is so problematic, and how to overcome it.

To over-think something seems to mean that there is an imbalance between thought and action. If we are over-thinking then we are thinking when we should be at the acting stage. To prepare for an action is wise, but to over-prepare can be just as devastating as not preparing at all (in certain instances). For example, imagine preparing to turn your car. You slow down. You turn your blinker on. Perhaps you near the right or left side of the road. This is only all acceptable in the event that you DO turn. If you miss the turn and continue on this course, it could be quite devastating to traffic and to yourself and anyone else on the road. There is a disconnect and misunderstanding in communication, and a lack of commitment to the action which creates confusion and in this instance is even quite dangerous. To prepare for any action in life is necessary, but only if the action is eventually taken. If the action is not taken, or if is taken too late, then this can be seen as a moment that one has “over-thought” the scenario.

What exactly is the problem with over-thinking? As you see, when one is so bent on thinking that they do not act enough (or at the right time), we can become paralyzed. Our thoughts literally stop us in our tracks. When we over-think, we tend to focus on not just how we should prepare but also on all the things that could go wrong in the event we take the action. This leads us to delay the action, or not do it entirely. This is clearly a problem for any individual wishing to lead at least a relatively normal life. Action is the only way we live, present ourselves, get anything done. Thinking is a precursor to it, but it cannot take action’s place.

The best way I can tell to overcome over-thinking is to recognize a thought in the instant you receive it and then act upon it as immediately as you can. This overcompensation leads to action over thought, which may seem awkward and foolish at first but is, in my opinion, a better option than to over-think and avoid or delay action. In any event, the overcompensation will in all likelihood even you out to the point where you are thinking and action in equal proportions, and no longer jumping into action nor delaying/avoiding it.

Lia Cross 

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WorldSave has been more or less off-line the past 12 days.  You have my apologies.  It appears that my second laziness trial hijacked me away from the computer entirely and I actually have not turned mine on for the past 3 days, let alone been on it much at all the past 11.  I kept my rules, for the most part.  I went outside every single sunny day, for a good amount of time too.  Because of this, the past few cloudy days have really slowed me down because I feel such a drastic difference without the sun.  I have also reconnected with old friends, and I made two new ones, although I wouldn’t really count them because they are two online acquaintances.  I have mostly kept the house clean.  There are two rooms that require more attention but I still did much better than usual.  I kept on my feet and active most days.  I also had time to think about what my problem was, not just with laziness but with everything in general.  The consensus leads us back to a balance of thinking, feeling, and acting.  I have been made more aware of my reliance upon thinking, to the point where I sometimes do not feel and I almost never act.  I find that I am infinitely happier when I chose to act upon my thoughts, rather than continue thinking.  I also find that, when I do this, I feel more, and can also act upon my feelings.  All three are coming into balance now, and overall I find life to be more fulfilling.  I think the source of this, besides a kick in the butt from losing and then regaining my significant other, is realizing that I need to act on things that must be done, not just things I feel like doing.  Following this has brought me further in my self development.  I also noticed that when I over think things, I don’t really know what I’m talking about when I try to express them.  For this reason I lost my relationship, and for the reason of my seeking balance I have regained it.  Truly, being unbalanced in this way not only affects you but it affects everyone around you.  I am determined to not over think things, to not lose my feelings, and to act on things as I realize they need to be done, or as I realize I want to do them.  I do not want to think so much on something, explore every possible success or failure, to the point where I don’t want to do something I previously wanted to do very badly–or to the point where I balk from something that needs doing.  That is what the second laziness trial showed me.

I gave up making lists for a little while, and at first it was very good.  I just did things rather than thinking about doing them.  Unfortunately, I also forgot some things that needed doing and they slacked behind.  I think that a little longer of list making and getting in a pattern with certain chores is all I need to nix the list entirely and just act on instinct.

To help in this development, since I do not trust myself to keep it on my own, I have enlisted the assistance of a counselor.  I have had one once previously while attending the Institute for Integrative Nutrition, and I found it immensely helpful to have someone to keep track of my goals and how I was progressing toward them.  I plan to use this counselor in the same way, to express my theories, how I am making progress, and what works.  So far I have come to the conclusion of where all my problems were stemming from, and I plan to build upon this conclusion until I have come to a new level in my self-development–preferably being more mature and independent.

I am not going to embark on a second laziness trial.  While I see the virtue in it, I do not see the need.  If I find myself slacking off again I will do so, but I have been doing just fine even when I’ve forgotten I was on the trial in the first place.  There are days I allow myself to just relax, but even so I have bounced back rather effectively.

Lia Cross

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